Rabbit Letting Go

I am filled with a terrible sadness that I just cannot seem to shake.

It worries me because I do not want to feel this way any longer. I do not want to be overwhelmed by this loneliness, this constant soul-crushing despair.

I’ve written some on this blog about my love of cinematic movie scores – which also applies to the music written for the smaller screen, TV score music.

I don’t want much TV, I prefer my visual entertainment in larger chunks – and would much rather watch a film than episodic television. But there have been a number of shows on TV that have captured my attention and which I watched in their entirety.

Buffy, Firefly… and Lost.

LOST hooked me with the first ten minutes — which I believe (up to this point) to be the best opening to a series I have ever seen.

The other aspect which hooked me was the score by Michael Giacchino. Like any good score, it revisits themes throughout the series, emotional cues to cue those watching to key moments of the story. Lost made great use of this during significant moents – usually highlighted by Mr. Giacchino’s music and scenes shown in slo-motion.

The theme that is made use of a lot in the series is generally given the title of “Life and Death” and was used predominately to close out an episode… and most clearly in Season 1, episode 20 “Do No Harm”.

Do me a favor, and please, listen to this beautiful piece of music.

Throughout the Lost series this is the thrust I believe the writers and creators were trying to communicate with the story… forget the mystery of the island, the mystical “is it real or not real”, the cliffhangers and smoke monsters and numbers and Dharma Initiative … what they were saying is that its the connections we make, the lives we touch… that is the true meaning of our time here on earth.

I cannot think of a piece of music that captures this more succinctly for me, than this.

In my moments of despair, when I think I cannot take another minute of this pain, this sadness, this constant unendurable ache… I am reminded by this music that life continues. That while there is death and sorrow and pain… there is also life and joy and light.

During my brief time of living, I have met and loved some very very dear friends.

Some I still see, others have grown distant and still others I know I will never see or speak with again.

As much as I was disappointed with the way the series Lost ended – I did like the idea and the image of reconnecting with those who have meant the most to us in our final moments. To be able to touch them, hug them, to look them in the eye and to “see” and to know them… to tell them – you were important. You mattered. I love you.

I hope I am granted that before I go.

I hope we all are.

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